The sound of the other shoe dropping is a sob.

Well, I got what I was asking for: an answer.

"It is with great sadness that I must inform you that at its next meeting the Board of Education will be presented with a resolution to abolish your position for reason of economy."

So there it is. It looks somehow less scary typed out here than it did on the letter in my shaking hands. Now, it really begins. It's real. No more hypotheticals, no more what if, no more "maybe this will happen."

I am unemployed.

I am so freaking scared.